New album coming soon! First three singles out, see lyrics below!
Of all the chicks and girls I know
Almost all have been involved
In this crazy shitshow
Where they lost the control
She is a woman of flesh and blood
But you’re only proud that you guys ****
She said stop a million times
Yet you figured it was alright
Now she walks around on her tiptoes
She invited you into her home
The ground made of egg shells
Now that danger is always close
Thinking it’s on her
Parading in tight clothes
When you ought to know better
Than thinking she’s yours to own
These days she’s afraid to be alone
You say her eyes wanted me
But you never let her speak
You say that she asked for it
That’s some unjustifiable shit
And it still makes her freak
To see someone like you on the street
You’ve got a story worth bragging rights
But she’s never the same since that night
Even though her daddy said so, baby girl be watchful
You invade her home
And now she’s afraid to be alone
This song was written for and about people who have encountered sexual abuse in any sense of the word.
Het bovenstaande nummer is geschreven voor en over mensen die te maken hebben gehad met seksueel geweld in elke vorm van het woord.
Call ‘m gay
Call ‘m straight
Call ‘m bi
You only want to clarify
Through the glasses
Society has given us
Call ‘m boy
Call ‘m girl
Like an identity and no more
Call us a crazy specimen
But inside we are all human
If you are surrounded with what you know
How can you be judgmental about the unknown
You see people like yourself on the TV
You don’t know what it’s like to be me
Oooooh oh (can you hear me now)
Oooooh oh (I’m screaming out loud)
Oooooh oh (can you love me now)
Oooooh oh (I’m standing proud)
Call ‘m weird
Call ‘m odd
Call ‘m sly
As you try to classify
With the words
Society has given us
Call ‘m names
Call ‘m out
Like a stranger and no more
Call us crazy specimen
But inside we’re all human
This song was written for and about the queer community.
Het bovenstaande nummer is geschreven voor en over de queer gemeenschap.
What Do We Do
Screaming from our lungs which are polluted by emissions
And toxic waste in the ground
Crossing the ocean to a better place
There are waves of plastic in the way, Which we create
What do we do when the tides keep rising
And birds stop flying
And we’re on fire
And the flames getting higher
There’s no water to stop it grow
So we flee our homes, but there’s nowhere to go
This planet is our only home
Feeding animals just to see them grow five years old
And ending up at the newest burger place on the side of the road
Chopping trees, trying to squeeze another plan unto the land
Selling wood, so we can make and sell some needless goods
From the office
On the other side of the world
A young generation
That’s filled with frustration
Wondering who will take control
And fight for a green goal
This song was written for and about the climate.
Het bovenstaande nummer is geschreven voor en over het klimaat.
THE LOST, THE LONELY & THE LOVERS
Bedroom recordings 28 november 2020
Vol enthousiasme kan ik vertellen dat er een tweede album op Spotify staat. Deze keer opgenomen in mijn ‘Home Studio'. Ik ben heel blij met het resultaat dat echt helemaal ik is, maar tevens ook voor iedereen herkenbaar: songs for The Lost, The Lonely & The Lovers.
Sinds corona zijn we met z’n allen in een nieuwe samenleving beland. Een samenleving van afstand, isolatie en ontsmettingsmiddelen, waarbij een groot deel van het leven zich afspeelt in de digitale wereld. Het is ook een tijd van samenhorigheid, een tijd van omkijken naar mede buurtbewoners en een tijd van aandacht voor de natuur om je heen. Hoe je deze corona tijden ook beleeft, een ding is zeker: de anderhalvemetersamenleving maakt veel emoties los.
Ik bevond mezelf in zeeën van tijd en veelal weer bij m’n ouders op de zolderkamer. Geïnspireerd door de beelden van ontroerde zingende Italianen op hun balkons en door de veranderende wereld om me heen, begon ik met het opnemen van nieuwe nummers, die ik op SoundCloud releasde als ‘Quarantine Sessions’. Langzaamaan borrelde er een nieuw plan omhoog, een plan voor een tweede album op Spotify.
De eerste single,‘Somebody Else’, kwam eind september uit en de tweede single 'The Promised Land' eind oktober. Op 12 november kwam de derde single 'Alone on the weekend'. Met de online release op 28 november is het album nu echt uit op alle streaming platforms! Lees de teksten van het album hieronder. Geniet ervan, laat me weten wat jij ervan vindt, deel het album met de mensen om je heen en zet de nummers in je afspeellijsten. Heel veel liefs, Raisa!
THE LOST, THE LONELY & THE LOVERS
I'M OUT OF STORIES
I’m out of stories. I’m out of cares to give. Cause you are still not listening. I’m out of breath, fighting till the end. Why are you not seeing this? // Cause I’m drowning in my own fears. I keep forgetting how to swim. And you can keep on throwing lifelines, but they all keep missing me. And I’m running on a hill, but this hill’s too steep for me. And if I hadn't stopped breathing. You still wouldn’t see me. // I’m out of shows. I’m done pretending. If that’s uncomfortable for you, maybe you’ll see my side. I’m out of plans to make. I’m on the verge to break. Holding my hand out for someone to catch my grip. // I’m standing here. Right in front of you. Carrying a backpack that was made for two. And I have a map and I know how it should go. But I can’t seem to get my feet moving though.
I don’t wanna be a grown up today. I don’t wanna make decisions I can’t make. I don’t wanna walk on the right side. I just want you to stay mine. I don’t wanna be crying today. I wanna be reckless and not brave. I wanna give in and run back. I just want you with me. // And the saddest thing to see is the way you look at me. Like how we used to be so Happy. And now there’s just grief. And it’s so sad to know that you were my home and now we’re both alone. // Is this what it means to grow up? Cause if it is, I’d rather stop. I don’t care about the future, I feel it now. Do you think it could work somehow? Is this what it means to be brave? Cause I just wanna see your face
I don’t care about what makes sense. Do you miss me as a friend? // Do you still think about me then? You wish you were still my man? The weeks don’t feel the same , without you with me on our days.
Don’t you see that I’m fighting. Don't you see that I'm trying. Don’t you see how your words bring me down. I wish I could be just like you. I wish we could stand together the way we used to. I feel like somebody else. Someone I hate. Someone I have yet to love and embrace. // Am I not allowed to dream? Am I not allowed to be? Is who I am not good enough to deserve dreaming of a place where I am unconstrained. A place where I can love me. A place where I feel free to dream. A place with a new reality. // Don't you see that I'm losing. Don’t you see that I’m crying. Don't you see how my life changed right before my eyes. I wish I could go back. I wish I could control the future for me. I feel like an actor on stage, someone who plays. Someone who lies and longs for past days.
THE PROMISED LAND
You shine like the sun. You’re calm like the sea. We long for a place, where we can be the same. Your smile’s like a drug. You move like a song. We fly like the wind. Together we are always // In the promised land. Above the clouds, where the rain can’t fall down. I’ll hold your hand. You as my only crowd. This is our town. In the promised land, where can stand upside down and never fall out. // Your hair smells like summer rain. Your giggle gives my cheeks pain. We look into each other's eyes. We found the winning price. // And I see you smiling. You’re set in my heart and set in stone. The promised land is right here and you are my home.
It hurts to see what’s happening while I’m gone. Don’t wanna be jealous, but it lingers on. Long for a hand to hold me tight, for a shoulder to let me cry and let me stop from falling down. I get lost trying to get in control. I long for the things I cannot own. Showing the worst parts of me, but you’re not really seeing me. And I can’t seem to stop falling free. // Rain pouring down, my flames go out. I long for the sun to wrap around. The body that sweeps
The body that’s cold. The body that’s no longer feeling strong. I think, I feel and I want it all. Imagine life where I do it all just like you. // Don’t wanna bother you, you’re free to go. Still I can’t help but feeling all alone. Wanting to live as I used to back then. Wanting to give you someone else, than the person that I am. // Out all night and I just lie. Excuses why can’t be alive. I’m so tired of pretending. So tired of wanting to be where I cannot be.
DARE TO DREAM
Emptiness surrounding me. I look around it’s all I see. It scares me how it controls me. How it’s still there after I try to leave. I suffocate no room to dream. I run and run but it comes back to me. Harder and harder till I can’t see. Emptiness, won’t you set me free. // Dare to dream. Dare to dream. Even with the pain inside of me, I dare to dream. Fight the streams. Fights the streams. Of the tears trying to drown me. If I dare to dream, I set myself free. // Loneliness is filling me. I search for something to complete me. I keep running from questions around. I don’t wanna be found. If I dare to dream I find myself, after a two day streak facing reality. I bow my head and sadness speaks. I’m back, in my own society. // It’s scary to fall off your throne. To allow yourself to be alone. To ease the pain that’s holding I should face my fears and dare to dream.
ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS ASK
You can hold my hand if the world is trembling. If the sun’s behind the clouds. If you are moving too fast. Ever so turbulent, without looking around. If you are scared. Sweating, with your nails in your hand. If you’re in a free fall, no strings attached. You can lay your head on my chest. Close your eyes and rest. // All you have to do is ask. Don’t be afraid of what other people say. Standing by your side. It’s a pleasure to stay. // If you are calm. Down to earth and doing okay. Will you take me along? Steady as we go, enjoying every day. Through ups and down, if you need a friend. I’ll make the sun meet us halfway. Colorful days, you know where to find me. // As much as you wish . As much as you please. Love yourself. So I can reach your trouble and your happy place.
I can lean on her. She is more than I deserve. Her love is so pure, never felt anything so incredible. She is all I want. I look in the future. My magic ball is telling me that we’ll be sitting happily. I like to read to her. Feel her dozing off. Seeing her at peace I never want to sleep. // I am so at ease. Nowhere else I have to be. Please never leave. I've seen the other side. If it’s okay, I’d like to stay. // When she comes closer. It’s like she’s a part of me. I wanna be the best version. I could possibly be. // Your heart is kind. Your eyes locked with mine. And I am home.
I’m sorry I don’t know your friends. I’m sorry that I don’t hang with them. I’m sorry that there’s nothing to show off cause I hide back in my head. // You’re my princess. My other half. I know I’d feel empty having to show up without you on my left. You’re my princess who deserves all the dates she can have. You’re my princess and nothing less. // I’m sorry that I can’t show you the plans that I make in my head. I’m sorry your friends still wonder what I’m like in real life. // It’s not that I don’t fight. It’s not that you’re not worth it. It’s not that I don’t want to. I know that the plan is right. It’s me and my thoughts. My head’s in the way of me standing next to you. Cause that’s where I should be.
I should write a happy song, but I can’t. Why is my head always fighting the other end? It’s like a seed planted inside of me. It just starts growing until I can’t see. // And I burst. Oh I burst. And I try so hard to calm myself, but I need to burst. (And I try so hard to find myself. First I need to burst). // I should write a happy song, but I can’t. I’m overthinking what might happen in the end. And I get mad because I know that it’s bad. And I get sad and it’s me who did that. // You know what they say. You know how to behave. You know what is right and what is wrong. Why does it still not feel like black and white?
I’m going with the waves. I’m in a flowing state, my thoughts along with me. I’m thinking this and that but mostly you as the sun’s sinking in the sea. I carry you along under the blue skies. The sails are filled with wind. // I see an endless sea. Your smile in front of me. I float away from you. I’m waiting on the day that I arrive. I’ll take your hand, embrace your heart. Tell you where I’ve been. But anywhere I went, you were with me. // I’m sailing in the storms. The silver lining is coming through. The sunshine hits the deck. The waves are calming down paving the road to you. I carry you along. And I’m not scared cause you make me brave. // The sea shows no mercy. The sea is uncontrollable. The sea can’t be tamed. The sea is a wild form.The sea sets you free, makes you see
that there’s so much unknown.
Baby play my old records. Let the cracks fill my room. Let our hearts beat to the rhythm. Let our hearts fill the room. Baby do you know this song? Can you hear the thunder come? Pick a cover that you love. I cannot wait for ‘Here comes the sun’. // Sunshine on your cheeks. A breeze through your hair. We hear the people on the streets, but we are up here. Sunday morning vibes. Your big brown eyes staring in my pale blue eyes. Oh baby I’m on fire. // Baby dance with me. Move like a sex machine. Let our neighbours see and let us move freely. Baby read along with me. This feels like a movie scene. Let the lyrics seduce. I can’t wait for ‘Johnny B. Goode’. // Listening to old records in my room (This feels like a movie scene).
ALONE ON THE WEEKEND
I’m sitting here by myself. The walls are closing in. There’s no one to listen to. No one to ask me about. I hear the neighbors talk late at night in the yard. I listen to the stories they tell. They have so much to talk about. // Alone on the weekend, while everyone’s out. I wish I did something else than talking out loud. // The traffic is passing by. People leaving and going home, but I ain’t been nowhere tonight besides laying in my bedroom. So I grabbed my guitar and played. Strummed each string like a friend. The melodies warming me. Getting me ready for bed. I am ready for bed. // Alone on the weekend, while everyone’s out and I’m right where I belong singing and writing out loud. I am singing and writing about. Singing and writing out loud.
Debuut album 14 juni 2019
Op 14 juni was de release van mijn debuutalbum in Scheltema. Het begon allemaal toen ik besloot om het jaar 2018/2019 als tussenjaar in te gaan. Ik wilde echter wel een opvulling voor dit jaar. Mijn droom om een eigen album op te nemen, werd steeds aantrekkelijker. Ik nam de beslissing het gewoon te gaan doen. Ik verzamelde een band om mee heen van mede-muzikanten uit de kroeg en vrienden van de middelbare school. Met wekelijkse repetities kwam het einddoel steeds dichterbij.
Begin maart begonnen we met de studio sessies. We maakten lange dagen, waarbij absolute concentratie op elk moment geboden was. Ik ging ook alleen de studio in, om de meer akoestische nummers op te nemen. Elke weekend klonk het meer en meer als een geheel. Na drie weekenden was het klaar.
Op 14 juni werd dit groots gevierd met vrienden en familie, die uit alle hoeken van het land kwamen opdagen. Het was een magische sfeer in Scheltema, waarna de afterparty tot in de late uurtjes zich voltrok in Schommelen. De CD is nu te koop voor €10 (bij interesse neem even contact op). Zorg ervoor dat je niets mist van mijn ontwikkeling, door je te abonneren. Liefs!!
Ps. Check het filmpje hieronder voor een kijkje achter de schermen in de studio...
DE RELEASE VAN LIGHTS ON
14 juni 2019 te Scheltema, Leiden